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A while back I met an amazing girl that I soon fell in love with. I knew that she liked me back. But while I felt more and more for her over time, she felt less and less.
When someone I speak with for five minutes walks off, I’m unaffected, because I know that they don’t know me.
But being rejected by this girl took a hit at my self-esteem.
I’m privileged to have extremely conscious, smart people around me who could give me input.
I felt like I was back in school – seeking advice instead of being the one giving it out.
It’s funny how we work because I could have had a very rational response to what happened:
“Well approach A didn’t work so let’s do approach B next time”.
“Well, maybe I just wasn’t her type”.
But instead, I had a wave of feelings washing over me: Feeling bad about myself, feeling that there’s something wrong with me, that I’m unattractive, that I’m inferior to others.
And then, when I knew what I wanted to improve, I felt like I wouldn’t be able to change, that I wouldn’t have what it takes, and so on.
I know that these feelings have nothing to do with reality. I can look at my life journey to see that. But still, they are just as overwhelming.
Even though they are “just” feelings, they are feelings we all have to deal with.
This is why self-improvement, to me, is about being able to deal with emotions
Self-improvement causes us to feel bad about ourselves because it reminds us of our shortcomings. If we can’t deal with those feelings, we can’t improve.
A lot of people try to cheer themselves up, or ignore their feelings, or occupy themselves with something else.
I do the exact opposite.
When I feel bad, I lay down on my bed and pay attention to each and every feeling and thought throughout my body, until I’ve given every sensation my full attention.
I accept my feelings instead of trying to cut them off. Sometimes, I even give them names because I know that I’ll have to live together with them for a while.
This isn’t some method I’ve come up with. It’s part of eastern teachings that have lately been proven in modern science: Accepting our thoughts and feelings gives us power over them.
I’ve learned to observe my feelings just like you observe a child playing. You watch it with curiosity, but you know that you don’t have to obey it.
This is why I’ve been able to improve myself and design my life to be what I envisioned it to be a decade ago, despite struggles. I accept my feelings, and because of that, I don’t need to fear them.
When you read my advice, you probably go through feelings of self-doubt and worry.
But you still keep on reading.
For that, I salute you, because accepting the pain of self-improvement is one of the most valuable things we can do in life.